4:41 p.m. - 19 September, 2005
The Woes of Nia
Hey guys. I am so confused now, and no, math isn't doing that to me this time.
It feels like I'm somehow trapped in some Romeo and Juliette story book, me and Adam playing those parts. Only, our families arent fueding, we can understand everything we're saying and he seems to only like me as a friend. I know that the point of him liking me soon is very small, and if that's as true as Helen Clark being a total bitch-- than my GATTFM mission isn't going as peachy as I thought.
All my friends are trying with all their power and will to try and get us together, but that's hard for them to do without making it so obvious that I like him that much. And with me going to Pre AP soon, what's the point of even continuing with GATTFM? I won't be able to see him at lunch because he hangs out with friends, and I'm not considered his crowed. But whenever I do see him, and he talks to me, it seems like he does like me. But those times are few. And don't even bother noting me and writing "Don't create self-pity on just one guy! There are other fish in the sea!" I know that, that's why I wrote it right now. I guess this is just part of being a teenager, you spend all your time gossiping and crushing on this one guy, and when you get up the nerve to see if he likes you-- he crushes you and ends up going out with some emo happy annoying prep you used to go to elementary with.
I guess I shouldn't waste my time on Adam when I go to Pre AP classes, I don't know if I should even continue GATTFM anymore. *Sigh* I need a shrink so bad right now.
Lord Help Me,
Forever-Dork
