11:55 p.m. - 10 March, 2006
I've Been Hated Upon
NOOOOO! Spring break is almost over, Sammy left d-land and the stupid government hates me. And the internet keeps going out. Could my life be any worse?
Okay, let's start with the government. Remember when I said that if they send my family some papers, we get to go to Louisiana so see Smackdown? Well, just as I predicted---they didn't. It's so ironic, whenever something good comes across my path, it gets ripped from me. And there I go, being trampled on by all those lucky rich kids who're good at math and have everything they can ever hope for. I'm like a bad luck charm FOR MYSELF! I need to get an exorcism or something.
So, I have a MATH benchmark coming up, and I already know I'm going to fail. No matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I study, I still fail at almost every math thing in the world! Except once, last 6 weeks I passed a test with an 85, my heart almost stopped beating, I was that happy. I hate math so much, it burns when I try to touch it...
Being falsley happy is so hard. I cried my heart out when the mail man didn't bring us the papers today. It seems like everything has taken a downfall again for me. Like I have nothing to live for anymore. Well, except for watching wrestling. My mom keeps complaining on that she should get her butt back in school, and she never attempts. So we have to live off of WIC and my Dad's pay check every other Thursday. And it's hard for me, because every girl now is getting a boyfriend, and nobody cute asks me out.
And like, when I write stories, the girls in them are rich and so beautiful that every dude likes her. She's either smart and super popular or rich and a beauty queen. Perfect everything. I never really based a character off of myself, or my family, except for the ocasional mention that they live in Texas like me. I just need to have a good long cry and empty my soul of everything---get that exorcism--- and everything'll be dandy. Or at least, more than it was before.
Anyways, better get going b4 the internet goes out again....stupid Roadrunner service.... Well, all I could do know is pray and hope God doesn't hate me either...Seyas.
Nia
