10:11 p.m. - 23 February, 2006
Worried About Arely
Okay, one of my best friends, Arely, is having death wishes. Today in second period she wrote a note to us [me, Stef, Matt, Astrid, and Eldi] telling us to leave her alone and she didn't want anymore friends. She wrote in her diary that we "didn't care", but how else can we console her if all she was going to say was "leave me alone!"? I don't want her to kill herself, she's a great friend! She understands things about guys and can tell me weird but yet funny stuff in our lame-o language arts teacher's class. She doesn't deserve to go like how she's planning to go, she cutting her wrists to "release pain". I don't want to be at a funeral watching her go down in her premature grave. She's one of my first jr. high best friends I made! I don't know how to help her at all, I know I can't change who she is, but it just rips my heart out to see her in this stage. I pray for her every night, I dunno what's wrong. Am I not praying hard enough?
Okay, getting off that topic for now, before I start crying. I might put a password on this diary. Why? Because one of my reporter friends blabs to everyone what I write without thinking. I can't write who I like anymore cause he'll tell somebody, he almost figured out the code names and ELDI you're getting on my last nerves here. I might have to resort to changing my screen name and having another diary! Yeah, I'm putting a password after I write this. I'll give Arely and Sammy the password. And maybe when Eldi forgets about diaryland, I'll take it off.
Okay, Stef is starting to think Ryan has a crush on me. I admit, he's been showing alot of weird signs. And I KINDA like him back, but I don't want to jump to conclusions and get caught up in the infamous GATFFM missions again, only it'll be GRTFFM for his name. I was naive back in the day. Lol, my heart belongs really to the Jesse's and Randy, Eldi. So don't go telling Astrid anything cause she'll start saying all this stuff again. She has Coconut, G-1 and G-2 so back off.
Anyway, I better finish my science. Oh on the test I got like a 50-something. I was SOO embarrassed! Munguia said it OUT LOUD. I felt like DYING there, it was unbelievable embarrassment. I still feel it now dudes. Anyway, I better get going to sleep....oh yeah and finish science. Seya peeps!
Love Ya Lots,
Nia~*
